** Due to the increasing severity of MY ILLNESS, it has become impossible for me to continue to post on a regular basis. Unfortunately, as much as I desperately long to, I am also unable to visit each of your blogs often or reciprocate all the loving, supportive comments many of you continue to leave - even though at times it may appear as though you've arrived at some long ago, forsaken blog! With that said, I really want you to know that I miss every single one of you and that I really am still here! I'm just too sick and too weak most days to be able to sit up long enough to create a brand new post...or even read one. However, I absolutely do receive AND read every new encouraging word you leave (and, often, the old ones, again and again!) and I cherish them now more than ever! I truly appreciate your love, support, and, most importantly, your precious time spent on your knees in prayer for my family and me. It ALL means the world to me and I am truly blessed to have friends like you!
~Hugs and Sister Love, Teresa

FYI: All comments come to my email, which I can easily read on my iPod. I also enjoy Facebook on my iPod because I can catch up on A LOT in a very short time there. Soooo, if you're on Facebook, come 'friend' me there! {{HUGS}} **

Monday, August 24, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FIRST BORN

Image via WikipediaA birthday cake

I have not been feeling well at all, especially the last few days, so I failed to get this posted on time - Saturday, August 22nd.

I can not begin to believe that it has been 23 years since I gave birth to my first born child, my first daughter. 23 years since I held her in my arms for the first time and fell head over heels in love with her. It seems like just yesterday that her father and I brought her home from the hospital in the little blue and white dress my mom picked out for her. I had secretly wanted a really fancy pink and white lacy one that would reveal to everyone that our precious new bundle was a girl. However, my mom had found one she liked first and proudly gave it to me as the new grandmother-to-be. I hadn't the heart to buy another one in its place. I still have that sweet little dress, so simple yet so beautiful. It swallowed her whole! She was a tiny little thing. Like all my baby girls, she was just over 6 lbs.

Whit Baby PIcture 5

Oh, how I sometimes wish she was still a baby and could wear that little dress again. How I often wish I could go back in time with the knowledge and wisdom that is now mine but was so lacking when I became her Mama at age 17. She would have had such a better mom than she did.

Whit Baby PIcture 4

There has been so much that I have wished very badly I could have changed about the last 23 years. So much water that has passed under the bridge that I can't get back. So many things I would say and do differently. Many things I wouldn't. No, I know I have not been the best mom in the world but I surely have tried to be. I truly wanted to be. Don't most mothers have that desire?

Whitney with Santa

I desperately want her to know that I have always loved her more than life itself, even when it did not seem like it at the time, especially in her mind. There have been choices and decisions and misunderstandings and mistakes and many, many other things that she and I both have made and have done that neither of us have understood. Maybe we never will.

But when all is said and done, all I want is for her to know that I love her. I have always loved her. With everything that I am. I will ALWAYS love her. No matter what. I want her to be a very real part of my life. Always.

I am so very proud of the wonderful young woman and the amazing mother she has become. She has created two incredible little boys who I love so very much, even though I very seldom see them. My prayer is that my renewed relationship with her over the last few months will strengthen over time and that one day the great divide that is between us will become less grand. I can only hope and pray that one day those beautiful boys will really know me and know my tremendous love for them.

So for now, I want to wish her a very happy 23rd birthday and tell her that I love her with all my heart and soul.

Whitney's 5th Bday

Happy Birthday, Whit.


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26 comments:

Shelly said...

Happy birthday to your daughter! Hope you are feeling better.

Whoever I Am said...

That is a beautiful post. Wishing your first born a happy birthday!

~Thought's By Dena~ said...

A very touching post...I hope that your daughter gets to read it and I also hope that she has a very Happy Birthday!!!!

Tabitha@ichoosebliss.net said...

A Heartfelt Happy Birthday To Your Daughter!!

Casey said...

awww, happy birthday!!!

septembermom said...

Such a beautiful post. I have tears in my eyes as I type. Happy Birthday to your daughter! The pictures are wonderful.

knit1kids4 said...

Happy birthday... love the old shots. And praying for a new relationship with your daughter.

Carla said...

What a beautiful tribute to your baby!! Happy Belated Birthday to her! So very nice to meet you:)
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Stephanie Faris said...

She's beautiful. Happy birthday, Whit!

LisaLisa said...

First and foremost I would like to say Thank you for stopping by my blog. You are welcome anytime!

I hope and pray that you are feeling better.

Last but not least I would like to wish your daughter HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ('.~) love the old shots...priceless moments.

lilybox said...

Happy Birthday to your daughter. The picture of her sitting on the rocking chair is adorable. Pray you feel better soon. with a little bit of faith all thing are possible. Thanks for stopping over @ my blog....totally appreciated. xo

Yaya said...

Happy Birthday to your baby! What a sweet post!

the girl in the green scarf said...

Happy Birthday!!!:)

Whimsical Creations said...

What a beautiful post! Happy Birthday to your baby girl!

The Redhead Riter said...

It made me cry. Very beautiufl. Isn't it just a shame that they have to grow up so fast.

Elle Bee said...

What a beautiful tribute to your daughter. I'm so glad you've been able to rekindle a relationship.
Elle

Kathryn said...

No problem! Yes, I am feeling a lot better, and thanks for the prayers, we both very appreciative!

Glad you liked the review, I have done more previously too. Oh my yes, I have read lots of Francine river's books and own quite a few as well. I have read Redeeming Love at least half a dozen times! I love Atonement Child and I also like her Mark of the Lion Series, and The Lineage of Grace Series, really amazing! I wish she would write some new books soon, she hasn't written anything in awhile... If you ever need some recommendations I have tons, I have about 300 books here at home.

Hope you are doing well, and that was a very sweet post about your daughter's birthday! :)

Mrs. Fish aka Two Fish said...

What a beautiful post. I just love to read the heartfelts of moms and their children, there is no bond like it! So wonderful!!

shraddha/april@theselfloveproject said...

Happy Birthday to your daughter!

peace and joy to your family!

shraddha

Dee said...

Hi Teresa,

Wow what a wonderful post. So many times we look back and have regrets but then we embrace what we have today and say thanks. What a hearty thanks to a lovely girl. I'm sure she appreciates it.

idontknow said...

What a beautiful sentiment to your "baby".
Hope you feel better soon, we miss you!

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Kim said...

I am a little late in commenting but I hope your daughter had a wonderful birthday! What a sweet heatfelt post for her.

I hope you get to feeling better very soon!

Kim

Mighty M said...

Beautiful post - Happy Birthday to your daughter. Thanks so much for stopping by!

Jen said...

You are a Great Mom. Wishing your 15 y.o. all the very best!

Jo said...

I am so touched by this post--which so closely resembles my own about my daughter.

Perhaps our circumstances are a bit different but the feelings, thoughts and desires that you have displayed seem very much as if they came from my own heart.

I wish you and her both peace and a joyous future.

Thank you, again, for bringing me here.

Your well wishes for myself and my daughter are equally returned to you and yours.

Peace, love and happiness,
~Jo (your new follower)
"Diary Of A Sad Housewife"

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