** Due to the increasing severity of MY ILLNESS, it has become impossible for me to continue to post on a regular basis. Unfortunately, as much as I desperately long to, I am also unable to visit each of your blogs often or reciprocate all the loving, supportive comments many of you continue to leave - even though at times it may appear as though you've arrived at some long ago, forsaken blog! With that said, I really want you to know that I miss every single one of you and that I really am still here! I'm just too sick and too weak most days to be able to sit up long enough to create a brand new post...or even read one. However, I absolutely do receive AND read every new encouraging word you leave (and, often, the old ones, again and again!) and I cherish them now more than ever! I truly appreciate your love, support, and, most importantly, your precious time spent on your knees in prayer for my family and me. It ALL means the world to me and I am truly blessed to have friends like you!
~Hugs and Sister Love, Teresa

FYI: All comments come to my email, which I can easily read on my phone. I also enjoy Facebook on my phone because I can catch up on A LOT in a very short time there. Soooo, if you're on Facebook, come 'friend' me there! {{HUGS}} **

Saturday, October 23, 2010


Too Many Heartbeats Dysautonomia

By~ Scott Krippayne

All who sail the sea of faith
Find out before too long
How quickly blue skies can grow dark
And gentle winds grow strong

Suddenly fear is like white water
Pounding on the soul
Still we sail on knowing
That our Lord is in control

Sometimes He calms the storm
With a whispered peace be still
He can settle any sea
But it doesn't mean He will

Sometimes He holds us close
And lets the wind and waves go wild
Sometimes He calms the storm
And other times He calms His child

He has a reason for each trial
That we pass through in life
And though we're shaken
We cannot be pulled apart from Christ

No matter how the driving rain beats down
On those who hold to faith
A heart of trust will always
Be a quiet peaceful place

This week has again been VERY long and difficult. I had to make another trip to the ER Wednesday night due to excruciating back and abdominal pain, accompanied by nausea, vomiting and fever. This time the visit was very pleasant, as far as hospital visits are concerned, but all they could really determine was that whatever was going on was not 'life-threatening'. All the testing they did came back normal. This was a bit of a relief because the last 5 or 6 times I've been, it has been life-threatening and I've ended up staying a week to 10 days due to sepsis. It was also a bit frustrating because we still don't know what is going on.

At this point, I have appointments to see a couple different specialists for further evaluation and testing in hopes they can identify the problem. For now, I feel a tad bit better, thanks to a couple more medications the ER doc gave me to help with the pain. *sigh* I am so very tired of just throwing meds at things to cover them up. It would be nice to know WHAT is going on, WHY I am hurting, and QUIT masking it all! I feel like they are doing their best, but it is still frustrating!

Thanks so much for stopping by and for listening. I love this song. I KNOW I am in the midst of a great big storm, but I can see that the Lord has chosen to hold on tight to me and let 'the wind and the waves go wild'. He is also trying to calm me, I just have to let go and let Him.


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septembermom said...

It must be so frustrating. I'm glad to hear that you're doing okay today. I pray for you all the time. The poem is wonderful. Thank you for sharing such beauty with us, Teresa.

Karen Mortensen said...

Beautiful song. Sorry you had to go to the ER. Hope they can figure all of this out soon. Thinking of you.

Thena said...

Wonderful song.

Teresha@Marlie and Me said...

I'm sorry to hear that you had to go to the ER again, but so grateful that this visit was not as bad. I keep praying for you to overcome the battles and achieve victories big and small, just not college football wins...GO GATORS! :-)

Michelle said...

I am so glad this visit to the ER was one of the more pleasant times.

This is my first time hearing this song.
I like it. Awesome!

Crown of Beauty said...

I have never heard this song before. The words are beautiful!

Know that I am lifting you up before God's throne.

Keeping you close,

EAWake said...

Teresa - I feel for you so much - as I think you know my form of Dysautonomia is NCS - neurocardiogenic syncope - rather than POTS. But I know some of what you are going through although it is different for everyone. I hope you feel better soon and find some answers. My grandma always said "This Too Shall Pass" - I'm still waiting but also finding a new way of living. I have a hat now from my mom that she made all of us in grandma's memory that says it and i wear it all the time.

God Bless and all my support!



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