The song I chose for today is an incredible song that has meant a lot to me over the last few years (and I'm even talking about a long time before I became so sick). It has truly been the cry of my heart to my Lord during THE most difficult and trying times of my life and the lives of my family - trials and tribulation in our lives that are so very complicated and almost indescribable.
There have been many days when I thought I could not possibly make myself crawl out of bed, that I could not drag one foot in front of the other, that there were absolutely no more tears left to cry one more salty tear or even breathe one last labored breath. Sometimes I felt as though I couldn't do those things, other times I simply did not want to. A lot of times, I just didn't care about anything. I was numb. To be completely honest, there were even times when I had absolutely no desire left to be alive on this earth any longer. *sigh*
Thank the Lord though, I had amazing friends and family supporting me and lifting my family and me up in prayer. I also knew I had my precious family who was really depending on me. Plus, I had to keep in mind that my situation was only temporary. Therefore, I knew I just had to keep on keeping on for a little while longer and, most importantly, I had to let the Lord stay in control of it all.
Then one day while driving home from work, I heard this amazing song on the radio and it stopped me in my tracks. I literally had to pull my car over because I was bawling my eyeballs out. It was so powerful and it hit me hard. It spoke directly to my aching heart. It really helped me to put things back into perspective. After that day, it seemed like I heard it all the time. But just at the right time. When I really needed to hear it. (Isn't the Lord's timing incredible?!?!) The lyrics are awesome and they truly express how I felt back then and how I feel at this very moment in my life.
I decided a long time ago that I would most definitely walk through the valley because, for some reason that only the good Lord knows, He Wants Me To. And that is a good enough reason for me.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
The creator of 'Then Sings My Soul Saturdays' is Amy at Signs, Miracles and Wonders. Please take a moment to go check out her blog and see what she and others have chosen as their song for TSMSS. It is a lot of fun and is a true blessing!