** Due to the increasing severity of MY ILLNESS, it has become impossible for me to continue to post on a regular basis. Unfortunately, as much as I desperately long to, I am also unable to visit each of your blogs often or reciprocate all the loving, supportive comments many of you continue to leave - even though at times it may appear as though you've arrived at some long ago, forsaken blog! With that said, I really want you to know that I miss every single one of you and that I really am still here! I'm just too sick and too weak most days to be able to sit up long enough to create a brand new post...or even read one. However, I absolutely do receive AND read every new encouraging word you leave (and, often, the old ones, again and again!) and I cherish them now more than ever! I truly appreciate your love, support, and, most importantly, your precious time spent on your knees in prayer for my family and me. It ALL means the world to me and I am truly blessed to have friends like you!
~Hugs and Sister Love, Teresa

FYI: All comments come to my email, which I can easily read on my phone. I also enjoy Facebook on my phone because I can catch up on A LOT in a very short time there. Soooo, if you're on Facebook, come 'friend' me there! {{HUGS}} **

Sunday, April 25, 2010


"I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.' If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that's rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach."

~ Maya Angelou ~


All I can say after that is WOW! What she said really resonated with me. I have done A LOT of things in my life that I am not proud of. I still to this day struggle with forgiving myself for those things. I know that I have disappointed and hurt a lot of people over the years who are very close to me and that makes it hard for me to forgive and, of course, I'll never forget.

Having a lot of 'free time', lots of VERY QUIET time on my hands lends itself to thinking and thinking and thinking. When you have that much time to think, it is not always good. I know the Lord has forgiven me and I have placed these things at His feet a million and one times but I am continuously going back to pick them up again.

Why do we do that? We crawl up in the Lord's lap and give Him all of our hurts, our pains, our fears, our disappointments and all of our many, many sins. We ask Him to forgive us and to help us. And He does! Then, not too much later, we try to quietly sneak up and take some or all of it back. But we are totally fooling ourselves if we think the Lord doesn't know what we are doing!

The thing is, the Lord wants us to leave all our burdens with Him. He wants to ease our load. In Matthew, He tells us, ' Come to me, ALL YOU who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.' How awesome is that?

Is there someone you need to forgive? Are you like me and need to forgive yourself? Do you need to rest?? Try crawling up in Jesus' lap today. I promise, He will comfort you and give you that much needed rest.


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christy rose said...

What a wonderful post!! Is always amazes me how longingly that the Lord desires to relieve us of all of our burdens. He only wants us to walk in His goodness all of the days of our lives. His mercies are new every morning. And He has already forgiven us even before we ask. It is so overwhelming to understand how good that He truly is!!!

Teresha@Marlie and Me said...

Amen! true forgiveness does come from within that is why it's so hard to achieve. we are so hard on ourselves.
This is a truly powerful post. Thank you! I'm off to get a hug from Jesus!

Supermanslady said...

"The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach."

Man this thought just kicked me in the booty! I really see how I may truly confess my sin and repent of it and start walking the right direction...but I just struggle so badly with forgiving myself and letting it go. Thanks for the encouraging thoughts and reminder!

And thanks for your prayers & your encouragement on my blog! Bless you!

Kristin @ Ellie-Town said...

Happy SITS Monday. Thank you for sharing your story and raising awareness. I had no idea a condition like this existed. You're in my thoughts...

GlowinGirl said...

It seems as though we have been thinking along the same lines. We don't give God enough credit when He said His grace is sufficient, do we?

Thank you for your kind comments at Sugar Tails and for following along with me. I look forward to getting to know you better!

Kylee said...

Hi! Thanks so much for taking the time to comment on my blog. I appreciate it so much. Your words were so encouraging to me.

I absolutely love Katie's blog! I don't remember how I found it, but I was hooked from the moment I started reading. It amazes me that she would take that huge leap of faith in going to Africa. The ways she continues to serve there astound me!

Hope you have a wonderful Tuesday!Glad to have you following my blog as I journey through life!


Fresh Mommy said...

This is so beautiful, Teresa. It's so good and helps me to look at my own self through prettier lenses :) I love your openness and honesty!


The Holmes Crew said...

THanks for such a great post. I think we all struggle with letting go of the things we've done and aren't proud of - even though God has already forgiven us. I try to remember to learn from my kids - they do things they shouldn't all the time and though we correct them as we should, they don't hold grudges and they move forward!

VKT said...

Beautifully written and so true Teresa! Once we ask our heavenly Father to forgive us, we don't need to crawl back up and ask again. I needed this reminder today. Blessings dear lady!!

Meg said...

Sometimes I feel like you can see inside my head! Thanks so much for this post.

Hope you're doing well!


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